I gifted a coworker with a journal for her upcoming baby girl. She was so touched by the special gesture. We have spent many a day simply talking about personal space and all things baby. I felt comfortable talking to her about my hidden desire to give birth. It was a safe space for me to express myself. It seemed only natural that I help her to celebrate her own gift.
While sitting in the GYN office yesterday afternoon, I spied a tagline in a magazine that helped me come to a realization. There is clothing available that allows you to breast feed without making an announcement to the entire world. While I am concerned about what will happen to my breasts as a result, breastfeeding seems to be the route for me to go. My division of natural vs. unnatural still looms around everything but, it will be important to give a baby the best foot going forward.
My color selection for the nursery has gone from lilac to off white. I am a strong believer in pink for girls and blue for boys; however, who decided that each color was exclusive based on gender? It would be best if I simply chose a nice soft color that can be adjusted based on the personality that will come into existence. An elephant will be included. The thought of an interior designer even came to mind but that quickly vanished.
Is it wrong to plan a nursery before a wedding? Maybe. But this is where I am…..