Busy is an understatement for what I have been through since March. Retrogrades have not been this harsh. Everything and everyone has deadlines and needs that have to be met yesterday. Scheduling and proper balancing have been an extreme challenge. I have escaped town and visited a spa in addition to frequent acupuncture treatments just to combat everything. The upside is that things are working in my favor. The downside is that catching my breath hasn’t been possible.
Today has been the first day that I have been able to breathe in and out without worrying about anything. I did absolutely nothing and it felt wonderful.
As I work on organizing the Circle of Sisterhood into a non profit organization that serves women, my harping has increased along with my need for sleep. My only complaint is that I am unable to clone myself.
As I lay in my bed late last night, my exhaustion led me to prayer babble. There I was asking for the strength to continue to just make it thorugh these last few months of work so that I could concentrate on what was the most important to me. It has been oh so wo so very difficult. How can I possible go on in this fashion. My right foot was hanging off the bed and it was pushed. I was alone…..well, not exactly.
As I rose from my bed, I went to the bathroom only to discover that I was falling asleep completey dressed in my performance attire. I dressed properly for bed and shut down the house. As I fell asleep, there wasn’t any rapid thinkig to keep me awake which has become a normal issue for me now. When I awoke, I felt refreshed and content. My plea for help was answered in a manner that I never would have anticipated.
The more you are able to ask for help and then rely on your ability to receive what is already yours, the more you will be able to understand how much support you really have and how far you can truly go.