The New Year celebrations have ended. Everyone is staring at the scale and wondering if the gym membership is actually a thing. Beds are warm and coffee is hot. Monday will start a new work week in a new year. Hell is slowly rising to a steady boil.
The anxiety of leaving the wonderful break and returning to the hustle and bustle of the 9-5 leave me in complete and utter despair. The last two weeks have brought me a great balance of freelancing and rest. Napping became my sole pursuit and leaving the house was extremely unnecessary. The thought of leaving this behind is dreadful.
I’ve never been a resolutions individual. There may not even be goals written down somewhere. However, there are ideas that I am developing as I am truly a constant work in progress. Is there something that I want? Always. Are there things to be done? Until the end of time. Am I putting forth a minute by minute concentrated effort on one thing?
These days life happens one day at a time. The larger picture relies on the building blocks of the smaller days. This is not the time to grab it by the horns and ride like a cowgirl. The sound of the water is so peaceful and it should wash over me vs splashing around making waves. The day will come when I have to dig my feet into the ground. For now…..silence embraces me.
A Word from the Book of Crystal
A sense of accomplishment is priceless. A feeling of doing something worthwhile is not found in your local store or on Amazon. It requires extreme effort, unending dedication, and a focus that defies gravity. Such a combination attracts success. There are many failures; it just means that you return to the same formula and rework the approach. It can be applied to every aspect of life: Love, career, family, education, or anything else that you can think about. What would you like to accomplish by the end of the year? What accomplishment do you want to brag about?
What a winding road this can be. As a child, a sketchbook was my best friend. I also enjoyed writing in my journal and wrote a poem or two. Once in middle school, music took over my life, and my training as a serious concert pianist began and followed me through high school. A sciatic introduction made music school auditions impossible and the piano faded away as the healing of the harp bloomed. My parents gave me sage advice when they said that I may spend the rest of my life trying to find myself which is fine; however, in the meantime, get a degree in something that will pay my bills. That was almost ten years ago.
Even within my liberal arts field, I have worn different hats as well as dabbled in other types of work. My stint as a Middle Eastern Dance instructor at a womens’ shelter was one of the best jobs of my life. My career as a musician has taken me to places and given me experiences that never would have come my way had it not been for my musical studies. Because of all of the things that I have tried, different people have contributed to my growth as an individual.
I have been in a career transition mode for a few years now. After I found my spiritual muse in 2008, there was no turning back. I wanted to dedicate my life to this blending of knowledge and practices from around the world. There was a long period of time when there was no mention of this to anyone. That changed into a select few that understood my need for silence. Last year, it took on a life of its own as I realized the one thread of my life that was ever constant and unchanging: I believe in the power of a woman. It brought me a great deal of joy to discuss it with certain people; however, I did not see that more people needed to know about that delicious femenine energy and what it can do for the world. Last summer, a dear friend told me to take my excitement for empowering women to the next level. 2013 is still a baby and my fourth workshop is planned with travels for the circle in the near future. Why I have even been asked to lead a ceremonial circle at a local festival of the goddess.
My background affords me the opportunity to draw on my strengths to create healing experiences for people. I use the harp in special dance workshops to help align the chakras. As a Celestial Reader, I often play the harp for my clients so that they can feel closer to the angelic realm. Sometimes, a spirit guide will even request a performance. Why, I am even preparing for a Celestial Harpitation in a few weeks. This work makes me feel effective, thankful, and connected. All of this swirls around my head as I overlook the coming year.
What does the future entail? How will I continue to empower women while growing as an individual? I often seek my balance myself. There is a quote along the lines of I have never ventured into something grand feeling adequately prepared. Well, that fits me in a nutshell. How can I, a person without any background in gender studies be the one to take a stand for women? This was a concern of mine until I realized that I did not need the papers to undertake this mission. My life has given me the experience necessary to handle and appreciate such work. This blog chronicles many of my experiences that have given me the background to empathize with my sisters when I see the same cycle manifesting in their lives. So, I say that the future holds more circles. I say that I will be in Negril, Jamaica with sisters at my side enjoying the beach. I say that I will continue to follow the very things that I talk about; listen to my intuition and allow it to guide me. It is that force alone that will keep me grounded as I continue to evolve on this journey that I call my life.