What is Left

Sometimes, the process of going through the motions when you have no other choice, can leave you feeling numb. The ho hum drum of daily life can be wrought with being rushed and overwhelmed with too many demands from sources that are not on the top of your list. Isolation and desparation may also rear their ugly heads. How does one add a subtraction sign to this equation?

It is important to focus on what is important. As long as I am working towards an ultimate goal that has meaning to me, it puts the entire picture into perspective. I am not looking to win a battle because the war is the end result; there is where the victory is of the utmost importance.
My goal is to transition into a career that is rewarding to me on all levels.

Before this day, I do not think that I realized how much this change would consume my entire life. Sacrifices on all levels have to be made. The change alone is a full time position in itself. Tweaking resumes and networking are constant efforts especially while trying to maintain regular responsibilities at work and home.

I have also learned the hard way that there are many people that do not agree and oppose the mere thought of leaving a career behind or retalliate to venting of the situation. Some people have truly hurt my feelings with some of the most horrible comments. However, how could they truly know what I am experiencing without being in my shoes? It doesn’t help when those closest to me state that I should be thankful to be employed and to remember how hard it is to get a job elsewhere…what would I do? (Lesson learned: understand that you can not vent at large…..)

It is true. I should be thankful that I have a job, and it did take me a long time to figure out what to do. The fact of the matter is that the lessons learned from my job will help propel me into the next chapter of this story, and I am thankful for maintaining what will be my background one day. Since finally coming to a conclusion as to what I should do with myself, I have chosen to not broadcast it to the world lest discouraging words are thrown at me like daggers. Positive company is needed at this time as this is not an easy road to tread.

Fortunately for me, the universe has been watching. Information and people have suddenly appeared to help me along the way. The Career Transition card from my oracle deck appeared this morning much to my delight, and I posted it in the LadySpeaks fb group. The Business Reflections Workshop covered how one can begin to plan an exit strategy. My pen was quick to copy all of this information because one thing is evident. Either I do something drastic or I will continue to be here looking for ways to deal with a situation that grows worse by the seconds. Some days are better than others with today being in the others category.

In the meantime, I have found myself wanting to stretch more while wearing my black and white leg warmers because they are funny looking. Just when I think that I want some company, a friend calls for tea. This week was suppossed to be quite busy with an event happening every night clear into next week. That has also changed, and I now forsee myself working diligently on my homelearning assignment from the workshop. My mind must stay calm if I am going to be able to focus on keeping myself in one piece while dealing with everything at once. Candles help and so will dancing. I have taken to cooking interesting meals with green veggies and have enjoyed a long period of silence this evening. Tomorrow is another day, and my bed chambers are calling me.

CONNECTING

There are subtle energies that exist in the world that we as women can tap into. If we are busy, filled with toxins, or stressed, they are very easy to miss. Such energies can often heal us of worry and assist with physical ailments. We have to take the time to bond with them so that they can keep us refrehsed and open for life to evolve.

Solitude gives us a chance to stop and think without distractions. It enhances your crown chakra. You can get in touch with your own voice without the interference of other influences that would normally drown it out. Just practising an “existence” in combination with a meditation practice can be quite beneficial when understanding how to listen to the guidance that the universe has to offer. Spend quality time away from social networking and other people in order to fully grasp these benefits. If you meditate in a group, consider adding your own meditation to that as well. You may find that the various experiences take you to different places and ultimately give you different answers. You may even connect with various light beings with these approaches. Explore your route and find out what works best for you. That is the menu that you are to follow. The combination of prayer and meditation can also work wonders.

Many women complain that they wish that they had more time to dedicate to themselves but that there isn’t enough time in the day. How is it possible that we as natural receivers give away too much of ourselves and then have nothing left? You schedule time to go get your nails done. You find time to eat. Schedule an appointment with yourself on a regular basis in order to accomplish those little things that you know will ground you. When you are ready to spend time with yourself, disregard the clock as you are your own priority. Others will respect your time and space if you begin to do the same. Living a life with a scattered brain will bring you scattered results.

This week in particular has brought the ever popular, “I am upset because I have eaten everything…”. Remember that we are humans. Women in particular are affected by various cycles including our favorite menstration. Your mind and body will react differently during these cycles and may demand different things. There is nothing wrong with falling off the horse for a little while and eating that dessert for a few days. However, if you stay off the horse and do not return to your exercise regimen or reintroduce greens in your diet, then the true defeat will begin. If you spend time at one extreme of the scale, take the time to balance it out by detoxing and truly watching what you put in your body. Your diet is a big part of your health and affects how you receive your messages and your thought process.

What about my feminine side? I have no time to devote to her. Of course you do! Instead of that treadmill this evening, why not try a Middle Eastern Dance class and unleash that goddess with ancient moves that were designed for your body by women. The natural moves will compliment what you already call your physical temple. Wake up a little earlier and play with your hair in the mirror. You planned on wearing black and white to that function? Why not add a dash of red to your outfit. You have flannel pajamas but do you have a silk teddy? There are many ways that you can work your girliness back into your life.

Creative outlets are another way of keeping that inner girl happy. When was the last time you painted something? You do not have to be Picasso to enjoy the feeling of a paintbrush on paper. If you enjoy reading affirmations, why not try writing some of your own to keep yourself inspired?
Attend the current opera or go to that restaurant that has a new jazz night. Why you could even be the newcomer at the spoken word night at the local lounge. There are so many resources for you to utilize those skills that you may have left behind in elective classes years ago. Allow them the pleasure of keeping you in touch with the expression of your own voice. Your sacral and throat chakras will say thank you.

Its Saturday night and the art walk is beginning in Wynwood. I can hear the cars on the street passing by as my fingers click away on the keyboard. I have ventured out today to wander about the world and shall use my evening to connect to myself and understand my own desires. My upcoming plans for classes excite me as I continue to develop, research, and share. The exercises from the last two circles are still in effect. My Moonflower is sprouting quite nicely with my balance intention, and my shell sits in my crystal grid as it reminds me of what I am working towards as far as a smaller intention. It brings me great joy to continue to improve and share with my sisters as all of us strive to be better women in a world that does not always welcome us. Take some time for yourself this evening and rejoice in the fact that you did something nice for yourself.