My 40th year on the planet started off with a bang. It has also brought about some lessons that keep me afloat on a daily basis. I think my favorite one is wanting something that does not happen. We often focus on what we want out of life. We won’t get everything that we want, and that is a good thing. When this happens, it is because it was not the best fit for us or something better is right around the corner. This is a good indication that in many cases, when a situation becomes too hard to manage, sometimes it is best to simply walk away. It was not supposed to work. That is the correct outcome. Why? Ultimately, it benefits you.
The women entered my home one by one. It was the beginning of my new life cycle, and a celebration was in order. Food, wine, friends, and poetry. An artistic good time is always right up my alley. As everyone got settled, we dined on exquisite salad and drank fine wine. Wonderful conversations erupted. The topic ranged from marriage to the relevance of Empire. It was a beautiful night. In walked the Aries and the true fun began.
Conversations went late into the night complete with smiles and laughter. Everyone was given a tour of my new master bathroom which I still do not believe is mine. Beautiful presents were given to me. Most of all the joy of the evening was the time spent with the women that live my life with me. Each one is special and adds an element to my ability to live a life instead of a simple existence. As the night turned into morning, a smile crossed my face and the memories settled into dreams.
While en route to my rescheduled spa appointment, I received some information that shocked me into a new realization. There was someone within my midst that would have to be removed. I wasted no time in doing so. The spa was lovely: massage and nails. It had been so long. Before anything else transpired in my life, it dawned on me that there was entirely too much craziness for a simple two week span and that another explanation had to be obvious. A quick calendar check revealed to me that indeed, I was living in the shadow of the infamous Mercury in Retrograde. My head hung in disbelief. The retrogrades were never written into my new calendar; how could I do this to myself.
After conversing with a trusted friend, she made plans for us to attend a comedic movie that night. The laughter and popcorn were exactly what I needed. As Saturday morning found me cuddled with my pillow, my desire for adult activities came to light. While I was calmer about the situation, it was apparent to me that a party was in order. An invite later that night did the trick. Great care was taken in planning an outfit and doing my make up. As my feet crossed the celebration threshold, my introversion was pushed to the side as an effort was made to be social. Hookah and glasses of wine soon followed. My time in this atmosphere was greatly appreciated and very necessary.
The weekend trip was postponed due to the crazy aftermath of my mom being in the hospital. The alternative was a great culmination of fun. Monday began with client errands and the arrival of my laptop bag. Meals have been cooked today instead of purchased. A light cleansing even took place. Such things have been delayed due to the new bathroom. There is finally less dust and more order in my humble sanctuary. Life has improved as the slow cycle creeps closer to us all.
Human bonding involves risk. It is not for the faint at heart. You have to lay your soul bare if you are to experience the highest levels of true love, compassion, and ultimate fulfillment. For those that choose to push themselves to the extent of such experiences, the consequences include rejection, isolation, and increased fear. They are the true daredevils in life. They are willing to risk it all for the one thing that technology will never replace: true connections.
On this new moon in Cancer, look at the most important connection. Look into yourself. Reach out to the fragments that do not please you and understand those aspects that do not get a lot of attention. Why is that? Balance the overexposed parts with those that never see the light of day. Give yourself permission to make necessary adjustments in your life. You may require time in solitude or a night out with friends, maybe a combination of both. Understand how you have gotten away from yourself and learn how to get you back. As a community of connected women grows, society as a whole will flourish, and the universe shall be at peace.
The breast produces milk to nourish the baby. It gives it energy that it needs to survive. How did it become a sexual object? It is powerful because it nurtures life. The woman has the power to bring forth life into the universe. Her body is to be treated like a temple by herself and by whomever she chooses to share it with.