Reiki: A Solution

She was loquacious. The chaos in her life seemed to spill into her dialogue, and it was completely unlike her. As the bedlam began to engulf me, I realized what was needed. The empath needed to be balanced because she had been taken by too many energies, and it was very difficult for her to find herself or feel grounded. My table soon appeared and she was instructed to climb aboard.
A few weeks ago, I acquired a piece of furniture that is able to house all of my spiritual tools: crystals, statues, incense, etc. It is a magnificent spectacle that doubles as a healing altar. The table was set in front of it. It occurred to me that she would benefit from the larger crystals. As I began to place them on her back, she made a noise that alarmed me. After inquiring if all was well, she informed me that a very pleasant shock went down her back. After thinking about the energies that were disturbing her, smudging became rather appropriate. There I was circling the table as if I had a track to run. It was necessary for me to sit at the top of the table in order to work on her head. It was of great concern to me and required its own time.
Her energies rocked me back and forth. Once they settled, it became apparent that she had a nice angelic background that came to join the session. As the session came to a close, the chair served as my comfortable foundation. It felt nice to have such a relaxing experience. It was meaningful and natural for me to be serving in this healing capacity. She came back to the present day and appeared to be waking from a deep sleep. All of the unnatural chatter and discord had vanished. A slow and gentle calm had claimed her and thinking patterns seemed clear once more. I personally can not wait until my next opportunity arises to perform Reiki once more so that I can can step into that gentle sanctuary.

SECOND, MINUTE, HOUR: YOUR TIME, YOUR CLARITY

How does one cope with utter chaos and sheer lack of clarity? When the world all around you is filled with a severe lack of common sense and tales of ostrich woe? Some may say wine. While I do believe that wine has its rightful place in life, that is not the answer here; neither is chocolate. Focus.
Return to the backbone of yourself. Stand strong upon your foundation. Remember your own mind. Meditation.
The list of excuses for not slowing down runs the complete spectrum of color with my absolute favorite being, I do not have the time. If this is the case, then take the time that you do have and get creative. Do you have a commute to work that is long and boring? Have a relaxing thought then. Perhaps, after dinner you have a soak or a hot shower all to yourself. Close your eyes for a moment and allow your mind to go to another realm. Why, you can even take the time to wander as you read this very post. Excuses are self made obstacles that prevent you from accomplishing something that requires effort; they do not serve you. Cut them out of your diet like the fat from a nice juicy piece of oxtail that you ate with red beans and rice. No, I am not hungry. Moving on.
A person can not simply stand by and allow the pressures of life to win. Life was meant to be enjoyed. Happiness is the birthright of all. You need a minute. The ripping and the running the walking and the talking the haggling and the eating……take a second look at what you are doing. Why are you running? To catch the train. Hmmm….if you went to bed earlier, you wouldn’t run late for the train. When you talk to people, what is the tone of your voice? Do you sound fatigued or interested in your own words? Do you even know? Oh, you never even heard yourself. You did not use that sense of hearing to feel the quality of your voice, the timbre of the words, the caress of the insinuation of that expanded vocabulary.
When everything and everyone has complete access to you, there is a missing piece to the equation. There is not a single crumb left of the delicious vanilla cake for you to enjoy for yourself. You simply must partake in the fabulous dessert called you that everyone else wants to savor. Oh but my kids need this and I have to run this errand. True. However, do you know that if you should take sick in bed, those same people would have to find other ways of dealing with themselves while you heal.
Take a minute. Breathe. Listen to the music. Go to the beach. Smile at yourself. Schedule the vacation. Sleep in. Take that moment to gain that clarity. It is a small step such as this that will begin to change you. Why, this is how wild fires begin. Imagine what would happen if such flames burned all over the world. The regeneration would be a powerful start of an amazing calm. Yes, I just meditated and the music is still playing…….

What is Left

Sometimes, the process of going through the motions when you have no other choice, can leave you feeling numb. The ho hum drum of daily life can be wrought with being rushed and overwhelmed with too many demands from sources that are not on the top of your list. Isolation and desparation may also rear their ugly heads. How does one add a subtraction sign to this equation?

It is important to focus on what is important. As long as I am working towards an ultimate goal that has meaning to me, it puts the entire picture into perspective. I am not looking to win a battle because the war is the end result; there is where the victory is of the utmost importance.
My goal is to transition into a career that is rewarding to me on all levels.

Before this day, I do not think that I realized how much this change would consume my entire life. Sacrifices on all levels have to be made. The change alone is a full time position in itself. Tweaking resumes and networking are constant efforts especially while trying to maintain regular responsibilities at work and home.

I have also learned the hard way that there are many people that do not agree and oppose the mere thought of leaving a career behind or retalliate to venting of the situation. Some people have truly hurt my feelings with some of the most horrible comments. However, how could they truly know what I am experiencing without being in my shoes? It doesn’t help when those closest to me state that I should be thankful to be employed and to remember how hard it is to get a job elsewhere…what would I do? (Lesson learned: understand that you can not vent at large…..)

It is true. I should be thankful that I have a job, and it did take me a long time to figure out what to do. The fact of the matter is that the lessons learned from my job will help propel me into the next chapter of this story, and I am thankful for maintaining what will be my background one day. Since finally coming to a conclusion as to what I should do with myself, I have chosen to not broadcast it to the world lest discouraging words are thrown at me like daggers. Positive company is needed at this time as this is not an easy road to tread.

Fortunately for me, the universe has been watching. Information and people have suddenly appeared to help me along the way. The Career Transition card from my oracle deck appeared this morning much to my delight, and I posted it in the LadySpeaks fb group. The Business Reflections Workshop covered how one can begin to plan an exit strategy. My pen was quick to copy all of this information because one thing is evident. Either I do something drastic or I will continue to be here looking for ways to deal with a situation that grows worse by the seconds. Some days are better than others with today being in the others category.

In the meantime, I have found myself wanting to stretch more while wearing my black and white leg warmers because they are funny looking. Just when I think that I want some company, a friend calls for tea. This week was suppossed to be quite busy with an event happening every night clear into next week. That has also changed, and I now forsee myself working diligently on my homelearning assignment from the workshop. My mind must stay calm if I am going to be able to focus on keeping myself in one piece while dealing with everything at once. Candles help and so will dancing. I have taken to cooking interesting meals with green veggies and have enjoyed a long period of silence this evening. Tomorrow is another day, and my bed chambers are calling me.